Meaningless

Meaningless

I didn't mean it
when I said I was fine
everything has changed with
just the toss of a dime
I try to reconsider my decisions
but it left me with emotional collisions
I think of hope with a sense of believing
I breathe a sigh of defiance when I know
I'll be the one conceiving the pain of
a closed off heart, the bullets plummet
down on the surface like rain to a roof
Just a spoof or the truth?
Either one, I hope I won't be shattered
tossed aside like a battered child's toy
left to collect dust and never see the break of dawn.